Friday, December 17, 2010
Reflections...
I went to look back at what i did through out this whole year.
and i realised that i actually did quite a number of things.
but i seem to have lost myself in the process.
the worse thing is that i did not realise that i lost myself.
no personal time,lesser time with friends,not doing as good in studies,etc.
it seems really 'no life'.
There are even times that i cried due to overstress and despair.
But i come to realise that this is just part of life.
This year has been an exciting,worrying,filled with fun but also difficulties at the same time.
But i feel that i have grown stronger.
The more difficulties i met with,
when i choose to face it,
Overtime,i feel numb.
Example,
when i get scolded for no rhyme or reason,
when people talk behind my back and even told an adult that i did something wrong,
which i think i didnt,
I CRY.
But now, when i meet this kind of situations,
i will use it as an oppotunity to learn and handle things.
so,normally the other party cried instead.(LOLs)
Well,the main thing is that,
i feel that thease people just wanna make your life sad.
SO, why harp over it and let them obtain their objective?
just chill out and remain happy like i always am.
There was a time this year when i took it so seriously that i cry everyday.
i stayed in my room throughout the holidays and didnt want to come out.
Can you imagine?
i was undergoing self-torture when the 'evil-villian' was happily laughing at me,
in the plan of his 'evil-plot'.
HOW CAN???
So i picked myself up from then onwards.
and afterwards,i knew i did the right thing.
i have to really thank lingxin throughout this year because she has always been there for me.
Especially when i felt lost and needed advice.
i am glad that i had never kept anything from her.
cuz it seems much easier to share my problems with.
But i am not sure if she finds me too naggy dou,
cuz i always share my grouses.
haha.i personally feel that i am not a good friend.
but never did she despise me or anything.=)
THANK YOU LINGXIN=]]
haha.i think that i still have lots to learn.
Lets just wait and see=)
Whatever comes my way, I AM READY.
11:24 AM
